Self Endeavor (Chapter 2 Corridors of The Heart)
Corridors of the Heart
On page 5, I asked the question, “God knows your heart, but do you?” That sounds like a simple question, but it can be more complex than you know. The complexity could be a barrier in your ability to acknowledge the inward factors that have caused a schism within the validity of our relationship with the Father as well as others. Much of that failure can be traced back to things experience throughout our lives; moments of pain, failure, or loss though unknown, they still have variance with in us today. Allow me to elaborate. As we journey through this life, our heart acts somewhat like a video camera. The only difference is that a video camera retains shadows of the things past. The heart tends to hold on to substance of past events. Some memorable, some not so memorable; the memorable ones we gladly disperse in our day to day conversations. Even though these can sometimes be a part of the issue in our lives, I would like to first deal with the hidden memories. In order to keep this as clear as possible, let me give a visual perspective.
Imagine that as you walk through life you are constructing a house. Each room that you find in the house that you see today, are chapters in your life. Some rooms are small, with very little to consider. Other rooms are great in size, and cluttered with many things that need to be assessed. And on top of that the closets are filled to the gills with bags, boxes, and even locked containers. These things are filled with denied actions, failed loves, rejected directives, and moments of not only joy but shame. The following diagram should give you an idea of what the house of our heart looks like if we invite Christ in but fail to let him fill the voids.
Within the walls of the house of our hearts are a lifetime of personal perspectives, understandings, insights, opinions, feelings, choices, and beliefs. Most of them justifiably so considering that we have endured heart ships in obtaining them. Sadly, many of these things are the reason for us not being able to begin a progressive growth pattern. For within these do we find the reason to remain exactly who we have come to be. I remember moving from Las Vegas to Texas; I received in my spirit that much of my personal property would not be going with me. I recall going through things that I hadn’t touched for at least two years. Yet with each item I wanted to clarify a reason that I might need it. In the natural realm we might call it hoarding. A determination to hold on to things that bear no place of necessity in your life. For many of us, a walk through the house of our hearts even after coming to know Christ, would reveal an environment full of items that should be deemed worthless in the face of your new-found purpose. But once again, we feel justified to cherish these spirit hindering articles because of what we went through in obtaining them. The final frontier for most professed Christians today is forgiveness. Many of the things, you would find that remain in our houses today are elements that exist because of the lack of forgiveness. Not only forgiveness for others, but ourselves as well. We even dare to have elements of un-forgiveness toward God for things we feel that he failed to fulfill for us. The sad part is that many of these elements remain unacknowledged; some because of denial and some because of ignorance. But understand this one thing; ignorance is not stupidity, but the act of disregarding that which is obvious to you. Like a low fuel light, or the siren on an emergency vehicle. Failing to acknowledge a warning, surely result in its after effects. The same stands for the spiritual house within our hearts. We wouldn’t hesitate to extricate any form of vermin from the house of our natural lives, so why do we hesitate to purge the spiritual house. God’s promise of spiritual empowerment is true. And we need to be asking ourselves what’s wrong with this picture. Why are we failing to be evidence of the Glory of God among men? He has and continues to fulfill that which He declared, but we must stand in preparation for the move of His spirit in each one of us. Do you simply desire to be an ongoing part of a weekly fellowship, or do you desire to be the start of something great?
Anything that is begotten of God is given power to stand against the wilds of the devil. (1st John 5: 18) But much of our shortcoming is based on a lack of understanding. Until we perceive the depth of what He can do in us. We are essentially floating in the water; unable to rise above the elevation of the waves. We are on a journey in an old car, the time has come to get out and take a look at the wear and tear its endured. Just because it’s still rolling, doesn’t mean the tires aren’t bad. Just because it’s still running, doesn’t mean it can’t use a tune-up. Just because it isn’t knocking, doesn’t mean you shouldn’t change the oil. We have let Him come and dwell in the temple of our hearts, but the time has come to do a complete real estate turn over. He’s got it all, right down to the silverware. If it doesn’t bring Him glory…Its gotta go. Too many of these minor factors hinder the full flow of His spirit within our walk. Many situations arise in our lives due to what we will sometimes sum up as misunderstandings. But the worst of them all come from a LACK of understanding. Misunderstanding can be based on a shortcoming of clarity, but all too often lack of understanding will be generated from refusal to release the areas of your own understanding in order to receive the truth. Prime example: I remember when I was a young man in the building trades; someone had taken an interest in my desire to learn every area of the business, so he asked me if I knew how to perform a particular task. After explaining that I did, I made my way toward the building. It was then that he said, “Hey, hold on a minute, let me rephrase that; do you know the proper procedure for getting that done?” My answer was, “Why don’t you show me how you would like it done.” Quite often we will refuse to accept that our perspective on a matter be it spiritual or carnal, might very well be lacking in truth. Some things in life have many ways of reaching completion, but all too often the evidence of an improper procedure reveals itself in the end. Many, rather than considering the validity of something short of their own perspectives, will actually judge the salvation of the messenger. But why do we endeavor to judge another outside of the truth? Simple; with-in our own mind it justifies our lesser imperfection, and if we dare to say…..it makes us feel better. We know that our endeavor is to be Godly and to please God, but yet something has hindered our walk, and it’s not an outside element. Quite often it`s many undetected personal preferences in the presence of a perceived to be perfect desire to do God’s will. So where does compromise find its way into the life of one who truly desires to do what is right? I mentioned earlier that God has given us all a unique Persona, but we will tend to take on a façade of who we desire to be; thus never knowing our true identity. Therein lies our problem. We will tend to set our spiritual destiny in mimicking someone else’s place of accomplishment. The bad part about this is that we really have no indication of where they are spiritually, because everything that we have observed has been manifestation of a physical social position. We desire to live by the Spirit, yet we will not release the trust of all things flesh. We have those moments in our lives where we are compelled to walk in fullness of the Spirits manifestation. But we tend to end it as Peter did while walking on the water. We get distracted by the flesh and we believe it more than God. Because so much of what we cherish within, are elements of our fleshly perspectives, rather than the manifestation of the Spirit. All of this because we know not what is lodged within the depths of our heart, hindering manifestation of the fullness of who God designed you to be. Here is a couple of examples right from the word of God.
Genesis 20: 1-7
1. And Abraham journeyed from thence toward the south country, and dwelled between Kadesh and Shur, and sojourned in Gerar.
2. And Abraham said of Sarah his wife, She is my sister: and Ubimilech king of Gerar sent, and took Sarah.
3. But God came to Abimelech in a dream by night, and said to him, Behold, thou art but a dead man, for the woman which thou hast taken; for she is a man's wife.
4. But Abimelech had not come near her: and he said, Lord, wilt thou slay also a righteous nation?
5. Said he not unto me, She is my sister? and she, even she herself said, He is my brother: in the integrity of my heart and innocency of my hands have I done this.
6. And God said unto him in a dream, Yea, I know that thou didst this in the integrity of thy heart; for I also withheld thee from sinning against me: therefore suffered I thee not to touch her.
7. Now therefore restore the man his wife; for he is a prophet, and he shall pray for thee, and thou shalt live: and if thou restore her not, know thou that thou shalt surely die, thou, and all that are thine.
The scriptures let us know that Abraham was chosen to be the Father of many nations. Yet this MAN OF GOD told a lie that had potential to bring down an entire kingdom. Did Abraham have a lack of desire to please God? Absolutely not, but within his heart did he unknowingly possess a greater fear of man than of God. And that fear facilitated his ability to exalt the hand of man over God…The next example is Peter.
Mathew 14: 28-31
28. And Peter answered him and said, Lord, if it be thou, bid me come unto thee on the water.
29. And he said, Come. And when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus.
30. But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me.
31. And immediately Jesus stretched forth his hand, and caught him, and said unto him, O thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt?
When Peter told Jesus bid that I might come to you on the water, he had no doubts whatsoever. At least none that he could see. But once he moved out on spiritual directive, he chose to be motivated by the physical elements round about him…why…because of the unseen element of doubt that he had within. This was not the only scenario where Peter’s inner doubt was revealed. And just as Peter we must all go through the revelation of our inner elements of hindrance. But first we must understand how to uncover these elements that have been in one way or another ingrafted through our past experiences. The scariest part to this is that many of us have developed these unknown elements while walking as committed members of a fellowship. But only because we haven’t been able to discern the unseen lines of division that are within what we have come to know as the house of God. Chapter 3 will give a clear layout of those unseen boundaries.